wheel of life

I was as usual readin lots of blogs, articles and mails, and conicidentally most of what i read durin the past week seem to give me a sense of loss, a sense of longing towards a carefree world that we had wen we were kids....
I have been reading about friends , readin about hard work, hard times that would end up in happier days, and lots of comforting mails , mails of caution etc... the incidents that are happenin around me makes me wonder "what is there in life"?.. its all so complex and full of problems ... one endin and bringin out another .. it is goin on and on... a vicious cycle...

There are lots of responsibilities around us .. the main problem is that people are findin it hard to realize them .. and once they do realize it, they are havin a hard time facing them... but people do go on .. people do hold onto something and face life as it is .. only for that little bit of happiness that they earn from it ... but why is life being so hard on us.. why is it making us feel so much pain for that little bit of happiness.. some people might say that it is becoz we will enjoy that happiness better after an hard days work... but i dont get it.. it cud be in an equlibrium .. aint it??

as i am writin this post there is a constriction in my throat..and my heart feels heavy .. i wonder how come people face life after so many problems... this just reminds me of my dad.. with the amount of problems he has faced he must have been thwarted in life .. as a parent, as a husband.. but he has understood his responsibility.. he has found life through us.. on that fateful nite 17 years ago his life must have ended... but god gave him another chance... i thank him so much for it... and my father has used it so well... and the amount of effort he has taken to walk normally ... there used to be a time when he cudnt support himself even to the loo... but things have changed ..because of his will power... he is now gettin better , he is able to walk better and better by the day and the senses in his leg are returning ... is it a cliche to say ' I am proud of you'

thinkin about this makes me feel better.. gives me a fierce pride to reach the sun... gives me extraordinary energy to achieve anything...