Fight for your Honour

last nite i watched this amazin movie Men of Honor which was about a Master Diver David Carl Brashear of the US Navy who was the first african-american to become a Master Diver after being senior chief.... i jus cudnt stop thinkin about the movie , Carl's courage and his dream to become a master diver after being shunted in the ship to be a cook was jus amazin...

He was given an opp to join the US Navy's dive and salvage skool... where he was faced with a black hatin Master chief Billy Sunday, who keeps hintin to drown him... there are lots of heated words exchanged...

Billy Sunday: My name is Master Chief Billy Sunday. There was a preacher by the same name who cleaned up Chicago of all the whoring spics, drunken wops and motherfucking niggers that was making that place unfit for decent white folks to live. The only difference between me and that old preacher is that he worked for God, and I *am* God

Billy Sunday: You think you're better than me?cookie?
Carl Brashear: You're damn right I am

Billy Sunday: You know what the Chinese say, cookie? Beware what you wish for.

but finally he fights hard...trains hard and gets in to become a sea diver but he loses his leg in an accident so he gets himself resigned...but his love for the sea doesnt die down so with his will power trains hard with Billy Sunday who now respects him and goes in for a hearing to reinstate him even though he is an amputee to full active duty, but captain hanks isnt inclined to do this ... so he gives him a test to rise and take 12 steps on the new divin suit which weighs aroun 290 pounds ... he somehow manages to do it ... on his 8th step he almost falls and Billy Sunday encourages him by sayin...

Billy Sunday: Now , get up cookie, move your ass, i need my 12...
Billy Sunday: The Navy Diver is not a fighting man, he is a salvage expert. If it is lost underwater, he finds it. If it's sunk, he brings it up. If it's in the way, he moves it. If he's lucky, he will die young, 200 feet beneath the waves, for that is the closest he'll ever get to being a hero.

this jus gives him courage to get his 12...and is reinstated ...

u mite wonder y i am writin all this but this jus shws that whateva u wanna become or do , fight for it, as all your critics will start encouraging you once you start doin well.... as has happ in carl brashear's life ... dont ever give up....

About Posting

I started off plannin to finish the joint post but im feeling a lil too sleepy and the topic is bit too abstract. SO i jus decided to do a small blog with all my unfinished posts beacause i dont think these are ever gonna see the light of the day otherwise! (yes i am lazy ! big discovery ;-) ). And yes anu , guess i was partly inspired by you.. (hmmm.. so im not even original..lol )

disclaimer :

this post is actually intended for my other blog .Its only due the constant whining of sivaram (read the post below..) and the fact tat now im admin here (yay!) tat it graces this blog.

post 1:

I have always hated cockrochaes. If u read my previous posts den u wud know tat i dont actually like hating stuff. But cockroaches are an exception. Its not tat i like lizards,rats and all those other yuck creatures. BUT cockroaches are a different matter altogether. I dont have any qualms about killing dem.. I mean they are after al COKCROACHES!!. They are not supposed to be there in my house in the 1st place. They are invading moi territory. And they are such despicable creatures. :-(. Do u know they can even survive the nucleur war?? Or tat they were alive before dinosaurs. Eow.

post 2 :

I think tat the world is divided into two kind of ppl : risk takers & risk averters. In other words those who dare to dream and pursue tat dream or those who go down the beaten path.. !! Those who choose to be different and those who choose to go with the crowd. All of us have tat " dream". Tat thing we always wanna do. But many things prevent us from pursuin tat desire.One is ofcourse the fear of ridicule , the need to conform. Another is the "other obligations" ( like earning money, bcumin financially settled, supporting one's parents etc ).But mostly its the fear of failure. But wat is success?? In our world success is generally equated with money,power,fame&material comfort. But is tat wat it is about.?

post 3 :

There are many songs tat are special to me not bcos of songs themselves. ie its not cos of the lyrics or music tat i like dem. But its cos of the memories they trigger. eg :

All the taal songs : Remind me of a bombay school trip & the experiences then..

Ricky Martin-Corazonado ,Eminem, Iron Maiden-Freedom : My bro coz he plays em 24x7

Dil to paagal hai : Has special memories of i dunnno wat. The movie , al the songs, that tune in the movie triggers smthg.

Paapa kehte hain ( qsqt) : Love this song. Totally love it. Reminds me of wen i was crazy bout Aamir. :D

Gunguroo ki Tarah : Reminds me of Dad. Infact any old hindi song or tamil song or carnatic song. Anything to do with old music reminds me of him.. hehe.But esp this!!

And these are few post topics which never even made it to the drawing board stage.. Just in my mind. Mayb i will post em in the coming dayz :

1. about circuses

2. about tele serials

3. about bein nostalgic

4. about staying in different places

5. about uniqness ( i solemnly promise shiv & sri tat i shall complete this.. some day.. ;-) )

And a lazy girl's work is finally done.hehe

ps :

i was tempted to name this as "meta blog" but i was afraid tat anu wud sue me for plagarism.

On Demand....

what to write??... I dun like ths blog bein bare for a long time ...sriram and radha what r u doin, not addin anythin..Last 2 posts are mine.... ok anyway there have been 420 visits to our blog in the past 12 days thts kool... there are 6 new visitors evryday, on an average, so thts gr8... so i dedicate this post to all our readers ... keep readin and leave your valuable comments and suggestions... even if we do not know you ... if you are hot we wud appreciate it more...

hot galz cn address sriram or shivram...and guys-radha.... coz we r straight....

and as a gesture for sriram and radha's co-operation i have given them admin rights to this blog.... please dont use your rights to throw me out... ;-)

thassit...

give your own title

the frequency of updation of this blog had been in its peek during the hols ... there has been nt much posted for a long time as coll has started ... so i jus thot i wud quickly add smthng in my free time .. so yeah my time in coll is totally borin ... the subjects are the worst set i hav ever had... worst of the lot are software engg... and engg economics..damn!!!... but yesterday was fun... i met few of my frends from skool who are here fr there pongal hols!!!...it was nice,we were discussin about lots of events tht happ in skool... it was fun tlkin abt them... we had a really nice time... vijay , arun and me were the only guys invited yesterday...arun was late as usual , vijay left in d middle coz he had to go fr a movie at 6... and it was a bit embarrasin to b sittin around 7 girls... and i was the only guy there... anyway who cares... and arun joined us almost as soon as vj had left

apart frm tht ntng interestin has happ ... my brother had come home... and i, as a routine brought in the subject of buyin me a cell fone ... i always start this convo wen my brother is home.. coz if i am alone i wud b refused point blank... my dad will ask "why do you need 1".. i wud never b able to give him a satisfyin answer so hav always failed to get 1... but i strted the convo hopin tht my bro wud support me... but i misjudged him!!... he started askin more ques thn my father... IDIOT!!!!....

so wht do i do... i offered to come with him to the station and strtred tlkin to him about the cell... as is common to say "semma ice vechen"... coz hez cmng next week and then i cud strt my fresh attempts to get 1... it wud hav been easier if tht stupid vice chancellor hadnt drafted tht new cell fone ban rule... f***!!!....

anyway if ths fails,i hav to abandon high court and appeal in Supreme court... i mean my mum... so lets see... please wish me luck.. :-)

wheel of life

I was as usual readin lots of blogs, articles and mails, and conicidentally most of what i read durin the past week seem to give me a sense of loss, a sense of longing towards a carefree world that we had wen we were kids....
I have been reading about friends , readin about hard work, hard times that would end up in happier days, and lots of comforting mails , mails of caution etc... the incidents that are happenin around me makes me wonder "what is there in life"?.. its all so complex and full of problems ... one endin and bringin out another .. it is goin on and on... a vicious cycle...

There are lots of responsibilities around us .. the main problem is that people are findin it hard to realize them .. and once they do realize it, they are havin a hard time facing them... but people do go on .. people do hold onto something and face life as it is .. only for that little bit of happiness that they earn from it ... but why is life being so hard on us.. why is it making us feel so much pain for that little bit of happiness.. some people might say that it is becoz we will enjoy that happiness better after an hard days work... but i dont get it.. it cud be in an equlibrium .. aint it??

as i am writin this post there is a constriction in my throat..and my heart feels heavy .. i wonder how come people face life after so many problems... this just reminds me of my dad.. with the amount of problems he has faced he must have been thwarted in life .. as a parent, as a husband.. but he has understood his responsibility.. he has found life through us.. on that fateful nite 17 years ago his life must have ended... but god gave him another chance... i thank him so much for it... and my father has used it so well... and the amount of effort he has taken to walk normally ... there used to be a time when he cudnt support himself even to the loo... but things have changed ..because of his will power... he is now gettin better , he is able to walk better and better by the day and the senses in his leg are returning ... is it a cliche to say ' I am proud of you'

thinkin about this makes me feel better.. gives me a fierce pride to reach the sun... gives me extraordinary energy to achieve anything...

About Friends again..

I have been thinkin quite a while bout postin on frens.. Well, Sriram jus kick started it with two posts based on friendship.. So let me tell my views..


I have always wondered about how u meet some ppl and u just hit it off from the first second.. Ur ideals match. Ur thoughts match.. U get each others jokes.. etc.. And u bcum good frens.. From day one..!!

Then there are others whom u have known for ages and ages but u can never get tat degree of closeness with them. U cant really "talk" with them.Jus casual talk.But still u claim u r good frens with them purely cos of da fact tat u have known dem for a really long time.

Yet others ( and most fall in this category) are whom u get to know over time.. With passing time u know dem better..U discover new things about them.. New levels.. time in this case strengthens the bonds.. With passing time u bcum good frens..

Then u have "gangs".. I have always contemplated a lot about this "gang concept".On da one hand its a really good thing. Cos u have a group of ppl who you know will always be there for u.. Whether it is to freak out. Or studies wise..Get work done..Want company etc.. On the other hand., it gets kinda "obligatory" at times.. Any activity has to include everyone.Anyone left out, leads to problems.And u may not be close with all in the gang.. U may not even like some in da gang.. But u have to live with it.
The main problem is tat u cant tel everything about u to everyone in the gang( u tell only some ppl whom u r close to ). But u wanna know everything about everyone in da gang. Certainly a contradiction. ;-) Intra gang secrets are a big NO NO.Which leads to problems.. Den u have inter gang fights.. Gang to gang migration etc. In a way all tat is real fun. So im kinda "for" the gang concept. I think overall being in a gang is better than being a free bird.
But like someone tld me.The main advtg of bein a free bird is tat everyone is ur gang!! U goto the canteen or smthg and u can join any gang ther cos u dont belong to any particular gang and hence aint obligated. Wel its all a matter of personal convenience i guess...
According to me the ideal gang wud be the F.R.I.E.N.D.S gang. Cos its a pukka gang without being too obligatory.. And personally i think 6-7 is the rite size for a gang.Anythin more than tat and u get lost in the crowd.But again , i repeat, it differs person to person.

One more thing which always gets me confused is about keeping in touch with old frens. Acc to me yes u shuld.. But many times ppl just drift apart.. And den , u r in touch just for the sake of it. Which is really dumb.
So , Lately i have come to the following conclusion. Tat good frens are hard to come by so hold on to them.. Stay in touch.. But if u have drifted apart.. Or if ur ideals have changed from before. Or if u have become a different person then i guess its time to move on with a different set of frens.. Tat really hurts i guess. But the important thing is to be true to your own feelings. Not lie to urself..!!

And tat is why i beleive in the quote which sriram put up.. Tat frens are like shoes.. U gotta find the rite fit.. And jus hope tat it fits forever cos sometimes the shoes may change... Sometimes ur feet.. Depressing , yes.. But tats life..

ps :

1. its the bestest feeling wen u meet a old fren and discover tat things are jus the same as always!!

2. nothing beats the feeling when u make a new fren.( makin a new fren bein distinct from meetin a new person)

3. or the feeling wen u attain new levels of closeness with existing frens. By sharing smthg more about urself. ( or vice versa)

point to ponder

"orkuttin" , "chatting" , "smsin" .. and all those other online social networks.( even bloggin??! ) Wat category of frens do they fall under ? Is it possible to attain "any" degree of closeness with a person thro any of those media.. Can these media help in forging new frens?? Or should it only serve as a medium for reinforcing existing friendship? Or is it just a bunch load of crap.. Face to face communications- does it have to be a given,must,necesssity for friendship?

opinions wanted ppl.!!

My days at Skool

I had gone to my skool and met the faculties today, it was nice , vijay and me went and saw our class room it was nice to remember evrythng we did.. life at skool was full of events , rite from laughin durin prayer session to discussing with our biology staff about prostituition we did evrythng possible. I was a part of Vidya Madir, Adyar since my 1st grade.. dunno where i did my kg.. as if it matters, anyway i really dun remember much till 8th grade but i do remember that i got a warning pass in my 7th std, .. does it matter??, even einstein failed his math exam... (I thnk i actually failed my math)... i am nt tellin tht i din accept my curriculum but i din find it interestin either...

anyway had to accept it in the end wen my dad thrashed my balls out durin my 7th hols... it was a bad time.. but i took a resolve to do well rite from my 8th grade.. i wasnt a high flier .. neither was i bad so it was gud fr then...

then came 9th it passed by without any big events except tht few affairs (puppy loves) had strted, nt for me but, fr my frends around .. well there were lotsa whispered conversations goin on, they were supposed to be secrets, thinkin bak nw it does seem childish... newayz it did pass by and there came 10th.. omg..... its a board xam year.. omg... we had to keep our nose tight... fr there were parents and teachers pressure...

i jus hated ppl who went fr tuitions , nevr beleived tht it worked , always had the beleif that it was a way of makin money, good money , anyway till then i hadnt gt my math and sanskrit right so had to grind me teeth and join in with the other idiots who went fr extra classed in d evenin... well i had to go all the way to mylapore after skool... i went to mk's extra classes ... i always wondered whether he slept.. he took classes frm 4 to 8 in the eve after his day at skool , tht was vidya mandir mylapore..... i hav always felt guilty of wastin my dad's money by sleepin dere... bt wht cn i do yaar he nevr did talk properly... he had 1 funny girlish accent... tht nevr went to my head...

I must give credit to mk anyway fr shapin my understandin of math... well board xams were over at last and 10th hols were fun.. tht was the first time my dad allowed me to get bak home after 9pm... anyway half my 10th hols he wasnt here he was i thnk in andaman islands.... gettin supplies fr them... he was workin fr the merchant navy... so tht half i was bak home after 10 la tht and had lotsa fun....

11th strted, i gt a mail durin my 10th hols .. frm my skool acceptin me bak with a computer science group..., 11th was more eventful then ever.. rite frm my first eva crush to findin abt other crushes, it was fun... lotsa smoochin were goin around..... got the best set of people in my batch. it passed by slowly and the best part of 11th was preparin for xlns 2001... whoa i was made incharge fr DumbC, tht was one of the top of line events ... so had lotsa fun... i tried lots nt to help kj (Kanchenjunga my house) ... it was an intra skool event.. 12 th were incharge fr Kalanjali (inter skool event)... and then 11th grade students had to go nd give out invi to other skools fr the kalanjali event... tht was fun.. along with 3 of my frends we went arnd to skools in mylapore , royapettah , gopalapuram, and few other places around tht area...

nw comes 12th .. it strted badly and ended badly but it was fun in d middle.... we din have a tour then... coz of the events in vidya mandir , mylapore, nilesh and radha wud knw y... subjects were bad , physics was fine (always found phy fun), chemistry was bad, it was bad evn though we had a ph.D staff handlin us... i mean i cudnt get more thn 35 outta 70 .... but it wasnt bad as the highest wud be arnd 40... anyway with xams nearin i cudn shake the ill feelin abt the subject... math was fine as we had the best math staff in our skool , and by then i did get a grasp fr the subject... infact strted likin it.... but the best was comp sci.... it was amazin... around the csci lab we were god...

had to do a proj fr phy, chem and comp sci, undoubtedly i put in most of my energy fr my comp sci project... we did classification of elements... buildin our own api's in c++... usin extensive c++ graphics... and the best and gr8est acheivement fr us then was bringin in mouse in c++ .. tht was fun... evn the staff were awed by it.. yeah phy i thnk i did... velocity of light in liquids , and chem was saponification of commercial soaps.... LOL.. used lux, hamam etc...

apart from this we strted preparin fr Kalanjali 2002 tht was amazin, we were called in our 11th hols to choose the event we were supposed to be incharge for ,vj and i put our names for DumbC and left early bfore the meetin was over but some bitch (dun wanna name her) took our names and put therz... got totally pissed we cudnt do anythin.. i was put in charge of d public address system.. it was a gud job but i wasnt interested... my work was only fr 3 days..so gt pissed.. anyway we did make arrangements fr it.. got sponsors nd all... we got more sponsors in a year thn easwari cud manage in 10 years... so we cud make fr the best PAS.. mikes, speakers etc..... and we put in super kool music ... and i also learnt hw to use the equalizer durin the events.... so my time wasnt entirely wasted.... we were actually praised fr it.....

and then board xams, tnpcee, aieee were all over had some free time but within a week our results came totally screwed... anyway got a seat in srm main... wanted to go there badly but it became deemed and so had to join easwari.. coz my dad had an ill feelin abt deemed universities... so came here..

thassit

FRIENDS...

I was watching FRIENDS yesterday night on star world(finally…..) and I realized why the show has become so popular and a legend in the history of television….
The show epitomizes everthing that we believe about friendship…a relation that as far as I am concerned…is among the most essential and sacred ones possible….
I mean…what is a friend….someone u talk with and whom u roam about with , someone u have a good time with…not exactly…if u ask me…I mean a friend is not just someone u can just have a good time with…that should be there…but there is a lot lot more……
A friend is someone whom u are totally comfortable with….someone to whom u can take ur problems, sure that he will be there for u…who wont leave u when u need him….friendship is not about expectations….u don’t expect anything from a friend….but hes there for u when u need him the most…
I don’t know if any of u have seen the sms about a true friend…
A good friend tells u to study before an exam….a true friend is someone who sits outside the exam hall shouting..”Machi bitta thooki podu…flying squad varanga….” I mean….its supposed to be just a joke, but isn’t that true, a friend does what u need, not worried about himself…
Your friend will disagree with you and make u angry sometimes….if he doesn’t….then he isn’t your friend….he ll guide you along telling you when you are wrong….irrespective whether u like it or not…
Let me finish with some nice quotes that I found….


Is duniya main dost kam milenge
Duniya main gham hi gham milenge
Jahan duniya nazar pher legi
Uss mor per dost tumhain hum milenge

Dil ki kashti bikhar gayi hoti,
aur rooh ke zakhm bhar gaye hote.
zindagi aap jaise dosto ki amanat hai
varna hum to kabke mar gaye hote...

FRIENDS R LIKE SHOES,
SOME LOOSE N SOME TIGHT N SOME FIT
THEY HELP U AS THEY WALK THRU LIFE
THANX FOR BEING OF MY SIZE

Dosti hai naam sukh-dukh nibhane ka,
dosti raaz sada muskurane ka,
yeh koi pal bhar ki pehchaan nahi
yeh saath hai umar bhar nibhane ka.

Resurrection of the Y2K bug??

When i was browsin on the net i came accross a site that said about the year 2038 bug , one that is very similar to the Y2K bug....
The year-2038 bug is similar to the Y2K bug in that it involves a time wrap not handled by programmers. we all know that the same wrap around problem did occur in the Y2k bug were the time at the first count of 2000 will be misinterprted as 1900... though this was a major problem it wasnt extremely critical as blown by the media.. Computer scientists were aware that those machines would continue operating as usual but with a reversed time and an incorrect date. Systems were corrected and tested in time.

now the Y2K bug has come back but in a different form.. this is due to a critical limitation of most of the sysytems. Most programs and many of the operating systems use the Co-ordinated Universal time to find the exact date. which is nothing but the number of seconds that has elapsed from the date Jan 1 1970.. this is the birthday of the Unix system.

Modern computers use a standard 4 byte integer for this second count. This is 31 bits. This means that when the second count reaches 2147483647, it will wrap to
-2147483648. The precise date of this occurrence is Tue Jan 19 03:14:07 2038. At this time, a machine prone to this bug will show the time Fri Dec 13 20:45:52 1901,
if you have noticed this happens on Friday the 13th.

This would not be a problem for machines that calculate time based on the standard Gregorian Calender the standard base for Java. so the major problem would be for Unix and Unix based system ..like freeBSD , linux etc... well, you might be thinkin that this wont affect Windows system and we are pretty ok... but the catch is most internet servers run on unix or an operatin system that is a descendant of Unix, for instance yahoo runs on freeBSD, google runs on Linux, orkut.com runs on Linux and even blogger.com runs on Linux( courtesy www.netcraft.com) ... so dates accross the internet would go haywire....